Ringing out the old and in the new.
Changes and changes and changes.
We're settled comfortably into our place with mom, and things seem to be working out pretty well - I have a new job that I like. Kevin unfortunately is still on the hunt so to speak. Fortunately, I make enough for us to get by - barely. Still, I have hope -even if it's somewhat smothered in a savory gravy of fear.
It's always that roller-coaster drop feeling when I look at the amount on the check then try to mentally calculate whats due this week - a feeling a hate, by the way - seriously I never ride them.
One of the things people always do at this time of year is to come up with a resolution for the new year:
- "I'm gonna go to the gym four times a week!" (yeah, for the first week)
- "I'm gonna quit smoking!" (until the first stressful situation hits you in the face like a wet towel - then it's to the convenience store!)
- "I'm gonna make better relationship choices!" (no you aren't - you have unresolved mommy/daddy issues, make your first relationship change by booking an appointment with a therapist - please.)
- "I'm gonna be better about blogging!" (This is mine - so probably not)
I guess we all start off the year with good intentions - and somehow life just steps in an roflstomps our plans. One of my favorite quotes is "Man plans, God laughs."
We're really just an insignificant species on a nondescript rock, hurtling through cold, silent, darkness - but because we're blessed with higher thought, we tend to make more of it than there actually is - God Laughs.
Upon edit, this seems so harsh - I don't really feel that we're that bad - but it's hard sometimes to see the beauty in the minuscule. I resolve to be better about it.
So - to everyone who is making a resolution for the new year, I wish you luck (Hell, I wish ME luck), and I hope that you're able to follow through.
Best to all and Happy New Year.
